Seriously? Again? You have NO IDEA…and for THAT you should count your blessings. What am I talking about you may ask? Oh…just our little Autistic afternoon meltdown ritual L It’s a cycle we seem to be in since we returned from Spring Break…Oh, I’m not talking about the typical, “MOM! He touched me!” Or the fit caused by hearing the word “NO.” If you have a kid you’ve ‘been there, done that’…
Oh no…I’m talking about the ‘see it in his eye’s as he flings the door open-type’ meltdown…the kind that you can see in his eyes cause his pupils are SO tiny…or that you KNOW is coming because he’s talking SO fast he can’t even take a breath…THAT’S the meltdown I’m talking about. And sometimes it builds slowly, but still…there’s no stopping it. It’s coming, no matter what ~ the screaming, the tears, knocking stuff over…getting so mad…all because he’s just so frustrated, or upset, or worried…and he just can’t explain it. And it breaks my heart…and makes me want to strangle him…all at once ;) Such is the roller-coaster of life that we live on…
Today it was ‘RE-GROUPING’ - damn math..lol…I know how he feels ;) You see, he puts a TREMENDOUS amount of pressure on himself (his parents were NOT like this in school ;) and if he is NOT perfect gets very mad at himself, very ‘down’ on himself…etc. Well, apparently re-grouping’s a weakness…which manifested into an issue with homework, which ultimately involved unauthorized calculator use LOL, a discussion of said unauthorized use, the ensuing meltdown (that if I had been more ‘on my game’ and not SO worn out from my OWN 5th and 6th periods I may have caught…ok I suck ;) the ensuing ‘mama fit’ LOL Let’s just say that we BARELY got Savy picked up by 5:30 today..HAHA. I did have to leave my room a few times, did have to photocopy his homework sheet to make a new one, did have to use just about EVERY trick I know, dry erase boards, swaddling, you name it…OMG Freakin EXHAUSTING, maybe it wouldn’t be if I didn’t ALSO do this ALL DAY LONG!! HELLOOOO… Ok I’ll take a deep breath now..LOL But for real people…
After dinner Savy said that she wanted to take a bath with me “a hot, quiet bath…” and by ‘quiet’ she means JUST the 2 of us…how could I resist???
