So, it’s been a while. If you are in my circle, you know
I’ve been struggling. My triangle knows the details about why. My triangle, I
wouldn’t be surviving without them right now. And my circle, well I probably
wouldn’t be sane without them. But this wasn’t supposed to be about them, it’s
about not letting Satan win.
Part of my struggle has been that I have been closed off
from God for a while. I’ve been mad, bitter you could say about some things
that have happened in my life, and I think that I blamed Him. We left our
church family behind when we moved here, both church families actually. And
while this move was the best thing for our family, and I LOVE living here, we
have faced some struggles and challenges that I think I blamed on God. That
certainly didn’t make finding a church here any easier.
What I finally realized about a week ago was that the
farther away from God I got, the worse things became. And the ONLY thing that
was going to make anything in my life better was to find Him again. I have been
making a conscious effort to find a church, and this morning I was determined
to go. But Satan was STILL doing his best to stop me. He uses fear, doubt,
everything he can. At the last minute I was able to get clothes on in time and
get out the door. And as I was driving I was thinking, well my hair is still
wet…but oh well…people judge, but Jesus doesn’t! Thank goodness I was going for
Him!
I’m so glad I made it there today. I needed it more than I
realized, even if it was just a baby step. Thank God for triangles and baby
steps. And NOT letting Satan win.
