NOT today Satan...

So, it’s been a while. If you are in my circle, you know I’ve been struggling. My triangle knows the details about why. My triangle, I wouldn’t be surviving without them right now. And my circle, well I probably wouldn’t be sane without them. But this wasn’t supposed to be about them, it’s about not letting Satan win.

Part of my struggle has been that I have been closed off from God for a while. I’ve been mad, bitter you could say about some things that have happened in my life, and I think that I blamed Him. We left our church family behind when we moved here, both church families actually. And while this move was the best thing for our family, and I LOVE living here, we have faced some struggles and challenges that I think I blamed on God. That certainly didn’t make finding a church here any easier.

What I finally realized about a week ago was that the farther away from God I got, the worse things became. And the ONLY thing that was going to make anything in my life better was to find Him again. I have been making a conscious effort to find a church, and this morning I was determined to go. But Satan was STILL doing his best to stop me. He uses fear, doubt, everything he can. At the last minute I was able to get clothes on in time and get out the door. And as I was driving I was thinking, well my hair is still wet…but oh well…people judge, but Jesus doesn’t! Thank goodness I was going for Him!

I’m so glad I made it there today. I needed it more than I realized, even if it was just a baby step. Thank God for triangles and baby steps. And NOT letting Satan win.