- Even when something is very difficult, if you know WHAT it is, somehow it seems bearable. It’s the unknown, the guessing and the 'what ifs' that are truly the most difficult.
- I remember during my first year teaching, Spring of 1997, my mom found a lump in her breast. She had minor surgery to have it removed and I went to their house that afternoon. She was standing at the back sliding glass door in her robe, chain smoking; while my dad sat in silence in his chair like a zombie. It was the first time I ever saw them as mortal, ‘breakable’, I was 25. I stayed that night, cooked them dinner and made sure they ate. It was weeks until we got the news that her biopsy came back benign. That ‘not knowing’ was crushing. I remember how hard it was to breathe that night.
- I felt that feeling again today. I saw THAT look on the face of someone I love today and there was absolutely nothing I could do. I was instantly back in my parent’s living room, struggling to breathe, and needing to be strong. But this time, I’m the mom.
- I wish I could explain exactly what is going on, but honestly, we just don’t know. And that unknown is scary. For now, I will say that we have some concerns with Savy, and some tests are being run. Like always, she’s a rock star! She would only allow me to pull her out of school for a short bit today, returning for the last 15 min of the day, just in time for practice. She plans on attending SG’s scrimmages tomorrow, and we are hoping to have some of the results tomorrow as well.
- We welcome your prayers, good thoughts, love and light. ❤️
